Who I Am

I am a 25 year old mother of two boys ages 5 and 6. My husband and I are expecting one on the way! I have been with my husband for the last 10 years and married for about 7 of those years. Having children and marriage started at a very early stage of my life. I was 19. But thankfully, it was one of the best things that could ever have happened. I finally had the chance to find my way out of homemaking to become a full time college student and prepare a future for my family. I was blessed to have graduating become a nurse. Now my next challenge in life, besides welcoming number 3 into our lives and home, is to find my way through college once again to eventually earn a Registered Nurse license.

Life was not always easy as it is never easy for most. My past growing up is not something I dwell on, but positive things most certainly can come from the most negative times in one’s life. I am proud to have grown into who I am today. I have a loving family that provided me with great motivation.

At 3 years of age I began to grow without a father. Daddy took off to never return. My brother and I had a wonderful stepfather for seven years who happily accepted us to raise as his own children. Unfortunately marriages do not last, so we lost the only father we ever knew. Of course there were several other stepfathers along the way. I felt sympathy for my baby brother because I knew there to be a void in his life that needed to be filled. There was no support from a father to his son. Life at home became harder and my grandmother accepted me and that is where I stayed until marriage. Of all the things to be thankful for in my lifetime, my grandmother would definitely be at the top of the list other than my beautiful family. I often wonder what would have happened if not for her. I believe things happen for a reason. We all have our destinies and at any given time we can change for the best or worst.

Growing up in private school was never the easiest task as a small child. Home life and school were two different worlds. I would do anything from eating the teacher’s sandwich in kindergarten to writing on a child’s jacket with a marker in the first grade. The paddle was always my closest friend. Since we were always moving constantly, I was finally able to transfer to a public school while in the fourth grade. I got bullied sometimes around the sixth grade; either from an eighth grader or this big red headed chick that had just moved in the neighborhood. It wasn’t just the fear of having to meet at the same bus stop every morning with the red head and any given moment she’s in my face; the worst of it all was not having a parent do anything about it. So finally I had enough courage to talk with my grandmother and that’s where it all began to change for the best.

Having gone through so much in life, it provided a guide for my future. I never had any intentions of dropping out of school and making babies. Thankfully I had enough intuition to pursue college. There were only 8 of us out of originally 30 students who graduated from the nursing program. It was the most challenging time in life other than giving birth. But I will never regret any second of it.

I try my best everyday to not take life for granted. Sometimes life is moving at such a rapid pace that it can be quite easy to forget what matters most and the things in life that we are most thankful for. I know we tend to remember all we had when it is gone and lost. I try and make the absolute best of my days. My family knows I love them and I thank God for them every single day. They make me who I am today; they are my inspiration in life.

Alligator River Tragedy

Prompt: The Alligator River Story

Abigail rated a 5. She is the kind of woman that only deserved a hateful and disrespectful mate in life. To belittle yourself and give your body away not out of love but as a sexual favor is very sad. She has no respect for herself so she couldn’t quite possibly respect another. Then to be ignorant and not understand why someone who loves her dearly would be saddened and angry that she could throw herself at another so carelessly. Those who do not have self respect do not understand why those closest to them are hurt when betrayed and deceived by the ones who love them the most. How could she enjoy watching someone go through pain and suffering that was intentionally caused? Abigail was the source of this event. It never would have taken place if not for her. And why even mention the actions she chose? It didn’t sound as if she were trying to deviate from her previous engagement.

Slug rated a 4. He is a bully that needs his @*! kicked. He isn’t any better off that Abigail. I think it is foolish for a man to fight a woman’s battle, especially when there are always two sides to every story. He was a bully to make a good impression.

Poor Sinbad rated a 3. How pathetic to be so desperate. We cannot be quick to judge when it comes to certain men. Woman sometimes claim that men do not always think with their brains : ) Sinbad is scum…bottom line. Once again there is no self respect and definitely none for women. It is sad when you have to make bargains in order to receive comfort from others.

Ivan rated a 2. He was definitely one of the smartest individuals in this story. He stayed out of it. Although he and Abigail were friends, he didn’t appear to want to lend a helping hand. Perhaps he knew only trouble would come from the situation. It seemed his friend was always up to nothing good.

Lastly, Gregory rated a 1. He had an innocent heart. Of course being betrayed from the one he loves would cause him to be outraged. Although he pushed her away, he was sad to do so. He seemed to care for her greatly, otherwise, he would have shown no reaction to her doings.

My Metaphysical Assumption

Prompt: Metaphysical Assumptions

My Metaphysical Assumption is that God created our planet and us human beings. Not because of an explanation of our existence, but rather from evidence. In the bible information was documented. Some perhaps do not believe in the bible due to religion purposes. Just the same as those who do not believe in God. Man was created in such a way that every human being would have their own individual personality; personalities that collide to create the future of Earth. It was and is up to man to determine the outcome of our futures.

When something fails, we learn and move on whether from our mistake or another’s. For example, where does organization come from? I don’t believe there has to be one particular source. It was how man was created. We learn to adapt within our societies. We understand what works and what doesn’t. We learn to solve problems. Ontology is the theory of being in itself. It starts with elementary actions that are the building blocks of our vision of reality that remain undefined. My assumption is that they will never be defined due to man’s ideas and creations.

Then we have Cosmology. I think Cosmology is more “proof” than that of Ontology. We use science to define the origin and structures of our universe. Our world has scientists who invent and create and then there are groups who merge together as the “whole”, such as, researchers finding a cure. We don’t have to necessarily come up with a concept as to why it is the way it is. Complex organizations during evolution include DNA, atoms and cells. Man is created; society’s forms then cultures are adapted. Our individual personalities come together and create the “whole”. Lifestyles are passed from generation to generation while with each new generation a new idea takes place and therefore a new custom is adapted.

We all have created our own pattern of beliefs. The origin from that of which we acquired from our ancestors or patterns that changed to fit our individual lifestyle. We develop traits and characteristics that explain who we are; just the same as having created a blueprint of our life.